The last assignment!

This week’s assignment, the sixth, is a carte blanche! (How could you do this to us Marika??) We have to decide on our own what we are going to write about. This requires a lot from us! and it is not easy. Through the weeks I have been thinking what my topic would be about, and even up till now I haven’t made up my mind. Our work should be coherent, focused and structured….and interesting of course.

I don’t know if this is an interesting thing to read about, but it is something that I often think about, and would improve if I could.

Sometimes, or often, I get really upset over my lack of rapidness when it comes to answering back. For example if a person answers you back in a not friendly tone, I get so surprised or paralyzed and I can’t find anything to say. It is not until after, when the person is long gone, that I find the words. (By then the sentences are so good, of course)!

I wish that I could be more relaxed when I talk to people that I don’t know. Because when I talk to someone that I do know, and who is very familiar to me, I have no problem at all finding words. I realize that this is a common thing, and that almost everyone feels this way. Nevertheless I wish that I was one of these people that had a “fast tongue”. Because there is a few people that have this rapid mind, and will answer back with something clever.

It is not just when I meet horrible people I would like to be a “quick thinker”. It could be when I talk to my boss for example. I remember one year, when I still was in school (to become a teacher) and went up to my former job - I was going to work there for the summer. My boss gave me my timetable for the weeks that I was going to work. I had told her that I didn’t want to work at midsummer. (This work was in a hospital and then you work throughout the week, it doesn’t matter that it is Christmas, midsummer or whatever)! I saw that she had put me up for midsummer-eve and I questioned her decision. She then told me that I didn’t work last midsummer and it was my turn to do it. I got numb and didn’t find anything to say – until I got home, and then it was too late. I was angry at myself that I didn’t tell her that it was really my decision when to work, because I was no longer there full time. She should be glad that I wanted to work there at all. In a way I think that she thought that she did me a favor, and I thought that I did her one. You maybe wonder how it ended – if I said something, I mean?! No, of course I didn’t. I went to work on Midsummer-eve and thought: Ok! it will pay off, anyway. On midsummer-eve, you see, you get more money. So I went there with this on my mind! (It feels really good to get this out of my chest – now…about thirteen years later).

I think that it isn’t just my brain that goes bananas and get blackouts when it comes to this. I’m really a coward, and it is easier to say something to someone when they don’t hear. I think that I get more courageous as I get older and this is something to look forward to, isn’t it? Maybe it is one good thing with getting older; you learn to stick up for yourself and answer back when you meet stupid people.

This is all I have to say for now!

I think that this has been a very nice and good way to learn how to write in English. (Blogging I mean). It has been hard but really fun too.

To all the readers out there: I wish you all a nice summer!
/Annelie